surrounded by cuckoos, but I was the crazy one

"In a mad world, only the mad are sane."  Like an episode of The Twilight Zone, difference in a single person, from that person's point of view, is madness.  You know who's really crazy, only because you are in your own state of mind.  You will never understand their world, and neither will they to yours.  Everyone is different, everyone has problems, everyone thinks differently.  But to fit in the most, thats the goal right?  Theres nothing wrong with conforming a little bit.  Go against what you believe, what you feel, and learn to feel love.  Can you convince people to a position having nothing in common with them and not being able to relate to them?  Of course not.  Splashing black paint into a white wall will only inspire those who see it to get rid of the black paint, while pouring white paint onto your wet black splotch on the wall will dilute the color- and no one will notice it.  And even though no one notices, you notice.  A change has been made, and perhaps things are different.  Now you can continue to add layers and layers of black splotches with the now diluted white paint, and change it completely eventually.  You can have a black wall, and none will be the wiser, as it will have originally been that white color.